A new year, a new beginning, a new challenge!!!

Well, at first, I would like to apologize for not blogging all this time.
Seriously, I am quite lazy to do so =)
But today,
The last day of the year 2010,
I would like to write something about it...

If you found my title familiar,
It's normal...
As it was my status in MSN...
For the year 2010,
I have gone through thick and thin with my family and friends!
I am so glad to have them as my companions...
They helped me when I was in trouble...
They did not give up on me...
From the beginning of the year 2010,
Until today, the last day of 2010,
They always brought happy to my life...
They have made my life full of happiness moments...
I am so touched,
And grateful to have them besides me...
I hope this feeling can always be with me,
No matter where I go...

Now,
As the footsteps to the year 2011 is around the corner,
Actually it's just a few steps more to go =)
I want to thank all people that lend me a helping hand when I was in trouble...
Thank you all of you,
I would never ever forget about all of you,
As you are already in my heart,
Deep down in my heart,
That is almost impossible to be forgotten...
I hope my family will always be happy and healthy,
And my best friends will be putting much more efforts in their studies,
As SPM is coming!
No matter what,
I will work hard with all of you,
To welcome this very new year,
Also an important year to all of us...
I also hope that all people around me can achieve their wishes,
As the saying goes:

"If there's a will,
There's a way!"

In Chinese,
People often say that new things will not come if the older ones did not leave...
I am happy but upset too...
2011 is coming,
2010 is leaving.
New life will start soon,
But fun is fading soon...
By the way,
We should always be optimistic,
We should welcome the year 2011,
With new hopes...
For me,
It's a new year,
A new beginning,
& a new challenge!

Best of all to my dearest family and friends,
May all of you to be happy always ^^
Let's welcome the year 2011,
And put a stop to the year 2010...

By:
Chong Wen Hui,
1310,
31st December 2010.

It's Blogging Time!

Hey guys!
I am back!
Having a lot of fun during the camp,
Mentioned in the previous blog post...
But it was tiring too...
However,
The percentage for "Happy" is definitely more than "Tiredness"!
A little bit upset as I fell down during the camp...
After that,
I missed out many interesting activities!
Never mind,
It's only my fault to not to be careful...

I saw a friend of mine,
Posted something meaningful,
Beautiful,
And wonderful in Facebook.
I loved that status!
It's something like this:

Girl : I love you...
Boy : I love you too baby...
Girl : Prove it. Scream it to the world...
Boy : *whispers in her ear* I love you...
Girl : Why'd you say it to me?
Boy : Because, you're my world...

Isn't that fantastic?
It's kind of romantic,
Although you can hardly imagine,
As it is quite abstract...

Away from that,
There are other things to be told,
Yesterday was our primary classmates' gathering,
It was kind of disappointing as only 11 out of 33 people attended...
I began to suspect that,
Have you guys forgotten all of us?
It's okay,
We still had something joyful yesterday,
We celebrated Desmond's birthday in advanced...
(Note: His birthday is actually on this coming Monday)
As it is close to our gathering,
We made these two celebrations together...
By the way,
Great & special thanks to all attendants...

Coming back to here,
I did have something that irritates me when I came back home,
The day after our camp ended...
It's about Facebook,
It's about someone,
It's about friendship...
It's annoying...
So I won't tell you guys ^^
I am tired to do so...
I am lazy to do so...

So,
What's your plans during this school holidays?
Working?
Playing?
Studying?
Or,
Doing nothing?
Well,
I am blogging,
And you are reading now,
Right?
Lol,
Okay guys,
That's all for this time,
Hope we can meet again soon...

2010-11-28

Last Blog~

What a sad day...
It is my last day to blog,
Wait a minute,
Don't you guys think too much!
I mean my last blog before today ends!
Haha!
Today!
Early in the morning,
I enjoyed my breakfast with my parents & sister,
Before my sister go back to KL.
After that,
Straight away go to school,
For what?
For meeting,
Of ~The MyTh C@mp~ 2010 by High School Batu Pahat!
It is the last meeting we had,
Before it is officially started!

By the way,
It is my last blog again,
Okay stop it!
Not the way you are thinking!
It is my last blog before I go to the camp as mentioned!
Because I have to go to school tomorrow,
At around 11am...
So,
I won't have enough time to write another blog^^
This is the last time (BEFORE TODAY ENDS!),
I say goodbye to my friends who aren't involved in this camp...

Packing, packing & packing!
Pack everything for tomorrow!
Let's hope it will be a successful camp,
That we ever organized!
That's all for today,
Kindly refer to:

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=group_146493088729613&notif_t=group_activity#!/home.php?sk=group_146493088729613&ap=1

for more information about our camp ^^
See ya~

2010-11-22

Holidays! Happy, or Boring?

Guys!
It's holidays now,
What are your points of view about holidays?
Some says it is excited,
As they are going to travel,
Some says it is kind of boring,
As they have less chance to meet their friends!

For me,
I can hardly describe it.
Well,
I didn't plan to travel,
But camping,
On the coming Tuesday (23-11-2010),
I admit that I didn't contribute that much as some of them did,
But at least I didn't boast whatever I have done.
Who is him to criticize me?
He just do a little bit more than I did.
And who is him again to insult Chinese Language Society?!
When he isn't even a member of my Society?

Forget about that,
More & more things are coming to trouble me!
I am disappointed of something that happened few days ago...
What did I get in return for being sincere in my friendships?
Nothing,
But negative feedback from them!
Well,
As anyone can write or say something about me,
Why can't I,
I just do as most of them will do.
I need to respond to their feedback,
At least!
I won't just sit there and do nothing!
And he still said that he wasn't refer to me!
Nonsense!
What did you expect from me?
Believing in you?
I know what you will always do,
And every time,
You went too over and over again!
So that is what you wish to see,
Something that I don't want?

I don't know whether you are lazy or what,
Or didn't even understand well what I said,
As long as you want to misunderstand,
Go ahead,
I can't mind your business!

I am not being petty,
But you aren't that rational too!
Watch it!
I can hardly believe anyone now...
My sincerity,
Can only be exchanged with a lot of hurting words!

Forgiving someone over & over again,
Can be very tiring!
I don't even know what to hope for now...
Or I just sit here and do nothing,
And keep saying "Never mind"?

20-11-2010

Back Again!

Hello my dear friends!
Welcome back to my blog!
First of all I would like to apologize,
For not being able to blog recently...

Anyway,
There is something that should be celebrated!
The exam is over,
And the results are all out!
Thank God!
I got better results than I expected,
And so,
Of course I am happy!

I know the first place will never be mine,
Because I have a genius friend - Dickson,
His capabilities is undeniable,
That is,
He always got the first place in my class,
It's an honor to get second place,
In this competitive class.
Luckily,
I got straight A s this time,
The results are shown as below:

Malay: A
English: A
Chinese: A
Mathematics: A+
Additional Mathematics: A+
History: A+
Biology: A
Physics: A
Chemistry: A
Moral: A

That is, 3A+ and 7A.

I am not being arrogant and proud,
This is just to keep my family members informed,
And congratulations to all my friends,
Who also tried they best during the exam period,
That was the time which people are studying hard,
To get today's results.
Now all of them had their own results,
Congratulations one more time to you all!

Okay now,
What should we talk about?
Is there anything fresh recently?
Oh yes!
Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows is coming!
How I wish it is shown in the cinema now!
I can't wait to watch it...
A little bit of disappointment when it's only the first part of that episode...
Because by the time that Part 2 is shown,
My SPM examination is around the corner!
Next year,
As I can recall,
There would be a plenty of movies shown!
Oh My God,
Should I watch the movies,
Or studying hard to try my very best?
I want both!

That's all for now,
I am going to play DoTA now,
As my friends are asking me to...

Goodbye friends,
See you all next time,
In another post!

16 November 2010

09-11-2010

As usual again...
Another school day,
I meant exam day...
I am frustrated to resit the exam!
Such a stupid decision!
Why should we resit for the exam while we didn't cheat in the exam?
It's not fair!
Why should teacher looked down on 4 Meranti!
Can't they do well in exam?
I despised teachers who made this silly decision!
It's not fair!
To some of you,
You might think that it's ok for you all...
But I don't think so,
It wastes my time,
Wastes my stationery!
I know it's useless to complain here,
But I just feel lazy to resit for the same exam again,
Especially Additional Mathematics Paper 2...
It's going to waste my 2 and a half hours!
Haih...
I should have enjoyed after this afternoon...
It ended up with another revision again...
For Mathematics,
For Additional Mathematics...
And I am supposed to return my text books earlier...
Hate them,
They are heavy...
By the way,
Why are you sitting in front of your computer,
Reading my blog?
Shouldn't you get ready for the exam tomorrow?
Now turn off your computer and revise for the exam tomorrow!
Goodbye~

Chong Wen Hui
09 - 11 - 2010

~Horrible day~

What a "lucky" day it was!
As usual, I woke up this morning and brush up myself...
Unfortunately, I felt pain on my neck...
I thought it was just nothing, and I didn't think of how it may affect me...

(T_T)
I was wrong...
I looked funny today...
I sprained my neck...















I am not Auntie Lucy who can sprain her neck as she likes to...!

Pain...
Terrible...
I can only turn my head to the right...
And after that, I will have a hard time to turn it back to the left...

Luckily I didn't go out today,
Otherwise I will be like a clown...
I am amusing!
Have you ever seen a person with his neck that keeps moving to the direction to the right?
Have you ever seen a person with imbalance shoulder?
Oh My God!
It's hurting me!

And another question,
Who is going to school tomorrow?
Why all of you like to leave me alone!?
Is it fun to play truant?
Or some of you just want to play?
If you can fulfill that time to do something beneficial (Study),
Rather than just to play (DoTA/Restaurant City),
I have nothing to say...

English English English...
I prefer to blog in English instead of Chinese...
That's me...
I like being myself (Excuse me, I didn't mean "I am who I am"),
Instead of being controlled by the others.
Those who set themselves as judges and juries is just being arrogant!
Annoying!
And the same as my blog title, HORRIBLE!

One of my friends asked me to read more, write more and talk more in English,
So that I can improve my writing skills,
Although he does not like English that much,
But anyway,
I would be happier when I blog in English,
I know he likes Chinese more than I,
As I always think that my Chinese is not good enough...

Yesterday night (Actually is 1am of today),
My sis talked of something,
She said that best friend is someone who likes to criticize you actually...
Her words confirmed my friendships!
I have a few friends like these!
I know I can trust them,
I know I will be happy with them,
I just know I am glad to have them as my best friends...

By the way,
Don't forget my neck is still painful!
What can cure me?
A sleep?
A miracle potion?
Blah Blah Blah...
I have to study again...
2 papers left...
Biology paper 1 and Chinese paper 2,
Good luck to all candidates...
Hope all of you can pass with flying colours (I hope they aren't in red),
Argh!
Bad neck!
You limited my movement!
You limited my freedom!
When are you supposed to get well!

Horrible, filthy day!
I hope it does not happen on my readers,
Ha,
Sunday nights,
Always passed in just a blink of my eyes,
Do happy moments always short?

Anyway,
Don't tell me I am away from my topic,
I was in great pain while blogging,
And I will never forget the pain...

T_T
Still sad,
I am so pathetic...

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

Have you heard the background music?
Have you understood what was it about?

Introducing this song, while you are enjoying, you can refer to the lyrics below:

Best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying......
I know you where it thins down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

Apologies

When was the last time I blogged?
When was the last time I blogged in English?
I wondered?
I forgot...

Why?
How?
What?
Who?
Where?
When?

All these questions never stop to bother me...
I was drowned...
By the exam,
By friendship,
By everything...
Sometimes I can just leave all of you on your own...
But I cant...
I never have the courage...
I never stop to worry about you...
I never leave you...
This is the reason I am frustrated...

When can I lead a happy and trouble-free life?
When can I live without fear & worries?
When can I find everything good in this world?
When can I free from everything bad...?

Stop questioning!
Please do not make yourself even more upset...
Do not ask yourself questions which you have not found out the solution...

It was the exam...
It is the root of all these problems...
Yes, I neglect everything and everyone around me during the exam...
Health, family, friends...
I slept late...
I kept myself in the room...
I seldom communicated with my friends...
I am sorry!
I did not realize during these times...
I account for my own health...
I do interact with my family...
But all these times, I found out that,
I let my friends down...
I was not there when they need me...
I was not able to help them in their difficulties...
I was helpless...
I was selfish...

Especially to somebody,
I created troubles for them...
I made them living in depression
I hurt them...
Please help me to find back myself...
Where I can be the Chong Wen Hui that all of you known...
I am stressed...
Who is willing to turn the stressed for me?
So that I can enjoy desserts?

By the way,
If you ever read this blog,
Do not attempt to comfort or persuade me,
I will be fine...
I will be strong...
I will be joyful...
After all these, I have done enough...
It is time to get back what I deserved...

忙碌-快乐

“我的快乐，会回来的。。。”

回来了，今天，我把它给找回来了。。。
好开心的一天，
虽然忙碌，
但却过得充实。。。

好久没有，
那么放肆地笑了。。。
看见大家脸上的笑容，
我也跟着开心起来。



就来说一说今天吧！

今天，是这样的：

Hari Kokurikulum 兼义卖会。。。
今天一早就到学校，因为要迎接VIP!
好大牌的VIP，
敢敢让我们等了将近一个小时。。。
Sarjit 很幽默地说：

“等下他来，我们demerit他” =.="'

哈哈？呵呵？嘿嘿？呼呼？咔咔？冷---------------------------------------------------------------------------------到一个点.

终于来了（现在才来，找打？），马来kompang 顿时响起，迎接那位大人物的到来。
几个马来人在前面耍silat（在跳舞吗？），有好笑到咯。。。
接着，代表向他致敬（一点都不尊敬，人家还没来得及反应就把手放下。。。）
校长指示他该做什么，他就跟。
巡视各个制服团体。。。
那个指挥官跟到很好笑，脸好鸟哦。。。
他进去了，耶！
我们可以Keluar Baris 了。。。

一出队，大家都跑去各自的档口，准备营业。。。
呵呵，我们真的很不赖，
食物多到得用好多张桌子来摆。。。
我们买的东西应有尽有叻：

-Nasi Lemak
-Mee Goreng
-Egg Tart
-Muffin
-Otak-otak
-Witchery Ider
-Coconut Drink
-Guava
-Pudding

应该就这些吧？
好多啦，记不大住。。。

一边正在Anugerah Pencapaian Kokurikulum（我简称APK）,
一边在准备他们出来时要买的食物。。。

跟翰霖要了一碗红豆冰。。。
康荣说太甜，
我说太淡。。。
不好喝的，真的，哈哈。。。

APK 完了过后，
嘿嘿，
有得忙了。。。
一群人挤到我们的档口（当然别人的档口也有啦），
忙到我们上气不接下气，
手忙脚乱（手是忙啦，脚，好像原地不动），
魔力点子还多得很，
就听见：

“Nasi Lemak & Mee Goreng 完了。。。”

接着：

“Egg Tart, Muffin & Otak-otak 也完了。。。”

WTH!?
我好像没吃到？
不是好像，
是根本没吃到。。。
我只喝到魔力罢了。。。

忙着忙着，
最后魔力也卖完了。。。
松了一口气 ^^ ,
老师又叫我们算钱。。。
嘿嘿嘿！
好开心。。。
算到的数额是：

不要跟你讲，
给你心痒痒。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！

我们在算钱，
他们在收拾。
下去时，
他们收完了。

好多冰块，
别浪费啦，
我来帮你们。。。
一场接一场的“冰战”顿时引发。。。
好玩叻！
丢来丢去，
小心点！
可怜的蝌蚪，
池水变成了“冰海”。。。

接着，
就到 3 Keruing 去上华语。。。
老师厉害，
把 Form 6 的赶出来。。。
华语课大家都在开玩笑，
很 LOL!

放学咯！
一天在学校的行程，
就这样结束了。。。

一辈子的朋友，好吗？

一份缘，联系了两个人，从陌生到熟悉；
一份情，连接了两颗心，从相知到相惜。
若是有注定之缘，
你就是我今生不可缺少的朋友，
我会珍惜这份友谊直到永远。

一直以来，我所犯下的过错，都是无意的。
其实，内心深处，既很感激又对不起大家。

我想通了：

失去时，不要设法挽回；
一起时，要好好地珍惜；
放弃时，要好好地去想；
骂架时，要搞清楚状况。

朋友能在一起，是件非常幸福的事，
我们应该把握身边的机会，
好好地珍惜朋友，
以免活在孤独、寂寞中。

我的朋友们：

原谅我的自私，
原谅我的小气，
原谅我的野蛮，
原谅我的不体贴，
原谅我的不善解人意，
原谅我的不善于表达，
原谅我，一切的过错。
我们，弃旧迎新。
抛掉过去的不愉快，
去铸就未来的快乐！

也感谢你们，在我无助时，伸出援手，扶我一把、安慰我、鼓励我，这些，我都不会忘记。因为我相信，我们能够做一辈子的好友，友谊永固！

特别感谢：
林康荣，
林贵焕，
黄启濠，
颜凯文，
黄凯铭，
郭翰霖，
郑嘉铭，
任建伟。

只想让你们知道，
朋友是一生的，
能相遇，
绝对是缘分。
好好珍惜身边的朋友们，
错失了机会，
就不会再回来了。



一辈子的朋友，好吗？
FOREVER FRIENDS?

Friends? Forever?

I cried my tears, you wiped it dry for me.
I was confused, you cleared my mind.
I sold my soul, you bought it back for me.
You gave me strength
to stand alone again
and face the world
out on my own again.
You put me high up on the pedestal,
so high that I could almost see eternity.
You needed me,
but I needed you even more.
When I was lost, you took me home.
And gave me hope,
when I was at my end.
You even called me "friend".

还是一样，每天得到的结论都是一样的：

你们的世界，容不下我。。。
我，还是一样，那么的多余、没用。。。

今天的上学流程过的没什么，只是看、听了些，就知道，自己心里在难受着了。。。

真的希望有人能够主动 talk to me。。。我想，大家都在嫌我烦吧？

我承认，我很叽喳，很吵。可我就只需你们那一丁点的注意。孤独，一点都不好受。

开始发现，我和朋友之间的感情，慢慢地疏远了。我不要！！！我不想历史重演！两年前的事，就让它过去！！！不要再回来找我了，我不希望看到痛苦的事，再度发生。就那件事，夺走了我交友的信心。。。让我无法忘记，那痛苦的回忆，留下深怕朋友离开我的恐惧。。。

或许，难道，我又错了？我错在哪里？我好珍惜身边的每一份友情。也许，我的方式错了？我表达得错了？

跟大家在一起，我就像拖累你们的累赘。永远，在你们后方，拉慢你们的进度。不管在什么方面，我都一样，帮不上忙。

内心好孤独、寂寞。我开始迷失方向了，不知该往哪儿去。就算哪天，我失踪了，你们也不会注意到吧？我的存在，根本就是不曾被关注的琐事。

我如果做错过什么事，只能向大家说声对不起。。。

渴望的事物，要等到什么时侯才能实现呢？
拥有的友情，又能继续维持到什么时候呢？

今天，这样吗？

今天发现了：

我就是那个，人多时，最容易被遗忘的。。。
孤独地，度过了上课时间。。。

高数节，忙着准备英文节时所要用到的器具，要演drama - Gulp & Gasp

英文节，发现了自己是多么的没用、没贡献，甚至会害了队伍。

下课，还好还有人肯陪我到食堂去，不然心情一定很难受。

下课后，我叫贵焕跟我一起陪德裕等人去复印年尾营的报名表格，之后Eric来了，去还星期五义卖会食物的钱，180令吉。

迟了一些进课室，发现到 - 怎么这么多人被罚站？？？原来老师大发雷霆，吩咐他们做功课却不听，结果被罚。。。做了她的功课，就是公民节了。。。

又来，又有功课，填充罢了，容易，做完了。。。

开始了，就在这一刻，开始了。。。

化学节，很莫名地心情不好，整节，很静地，听老师讲课，不想说话，很想静一静。蛮期待朋友发现的，至少有人肯问我发生什么事，我心情可能会好些。很可惜的，不多人发现，更没人来慰问我。。。

化学节完后，拖着很沉重的脚步，用“惊人”的速度回班。我走了与别人不同的路，自己一个人，静嘛~ 很慢，真的很慢。回班时，才发现，大家都在班了，我好慢。。。

华文节，老师没来，没上。拿了高数补习功课，很自然地跑到另外一个位子，一个人静静坐下，慢慢地做。。。在此要说声抱歉啊，两位第一班的好友跟我说话，我却没那个能力说出话来。当时好像嘴巴含了东西，想发出声音却又没有。。。很明显，他们看得出我正在衣默。凯铭想逗我笑，我却笑不出。。。

算了，做完了，跑到走廊去吹吹风。不错，一个人吹，很凉快，很爽。至少，把我的心情吹好一些些。朝班里望去，大家都是一帮一帮的，也许，那时，只有我一个人，在那边耍孤僻。或许，那时，很想离开吵闹的地方。

放学前，我才进班。当时，有人问我：“文珲，你干嘛在那里衣默？”
我傻眼了，不晓得该说什么，就走人，很抱歉。。。

看着大家脸上的笑容，我融不进。提了书包，再度自己一个人，走啊走，一个人走，走到校门，很希望朋友走在我身后。转头望去，没有。。。小失望。。。还是让我寂寞寂寞就好。。。

出校门了。。。要等车的当儿，车就出现了。贵焕跟我挥手，我的动作却小到可怜，不知他有看到吗？上车了，一切，自然恢复正常。。。

回家后，讯息了三个人。还好，他们没怪我。可我却很怪自己，在没有原因的情况下，衣默来做么？博取同情？才不，心情要不好，我也拿它没辙。。。

我告诉了其中一个人，我找不到我今天衣默的原因。

他说：

“原因不重要，结果比较好”

当时，心情真的好很多了，看到这封，更欣慰。

我很期待别人的回讯，是因为怕孤独，可是，有时候，自己一个人，也要坚持下去，别依赖他人，才能真正地独立。我越期待，就证明了我很在乎你们。毕竟，能忍受我的，不多。欣慰，你们不曾离开过我，不曾放弃过我。。。

！！！好友万岁，知己万岁！！！

...

傍晚时分，心情从不好慢慢转到好，可也没完全恢复。
今天，补习的我，格外安静，不知是不是因为前者。

一个小时半过了，学了Differentiation的第一个Concept - Limit Concept.
看了似懂非懂，老师说它很抽象(abstract)。
结果，解释了：

lim (3-x)
x->2

说也奇怪，把二放进去，不就拿到答案？
结论是：x is very close (close up to its limit until it cannot be closer anymore) to 2, but it is not 2!

大概会了，就放学回家。

-一个晚上的心情，就这样被毁了！-

下午，我说：

“你泪了，是因为累了吗”
还劝人，不要泪到累。
写着这篇部落文，我的心情竟然是泪到累。
我知道，一向来我都小气。
随口跟我开玩笑，我还无所谓。
普通这样酸小我，我不会在意。

可是，
你们知道，这次玩过火了吗？
伤我心的人，竟然是比好友更好的！
打从心底，知己不多;
寥寥无几，你却其一!
你还做这种事！
我没生气，是我受不了。
算了。
这次，竟然泪了、累了。

昨天忘记加：
跟你们玩玩的，哈哈。
我没生你们的气。

2010-10-01

今天心情，好糟。

没什么，只因好友心情低落。

看着他，不禁心酸。

他，成绩每次都很完美。

今天，他愣了。

一整天，几乎完全没有表情。

即使班上有些笑意，他脸上，还是没有开心的表情。

我无助地看着他，爱莫能助。

能帮的，应该只有劝劝他吧？

“早点看破，才看得见以后。”
看开点，人非圣贤，孰能无过？
难过时，找对象倾诉、哭出来、大喊，至少心情会好一些。
振作点，忘记难过的事，想一想快乐的事，别把自己逼得太紧。
不要封闭自己，有事的时候，我可以借你耳朵。
只希望，身边的朋友别难过，不然我也会难受。
就当做这次是个教训，不经一事，不长一智。
明了，下次就不会重犯了。
祝你心情早日恢复。

以上，是我在面书对他说的。

不晓得，他有看见吗？

只能说，好友心情不好；

自己，当然也不会好过。

贵焕，振作点！我们永远支持你。

没有人能使你堕落，只有你能决定自己是否堕落。

我能很肯定地告诉你，我的答案是：不能！！！

如果你放弃你自己，就没人能救得了你。

只想说，一次的小挫折不代表什么。

你还记得吗？你对我说过：

“这不是决定你将来的分岔口。。。我们还有大考。。。”

那你呢？是否也该振作起来，不辜负大家对你的期望？

不管你有没有看到，我都希望你能看开一点。

顺境不足喜，逆境不足忧。

是非成败转头空，青山依旧在，几度夕阳红。

朋友，会在你失落时依然在你左右。你也不想让我们担心吧？

最后，还是想说：加油，不管发生什么事，你永远都是我们的好友！！！

“学会比以前快乐，如果难过，更要振作点，让关心你的人不再担心。”

永远把你当知己的:

文珲

音乐~

原来，你慢慢的融入了我生活的一部分...

以前，看见别人听歌，只会觉得无聊。
现在，就连我自己，也开始听歌了。

感谢家人与朋友，带我慢慢走进音乐的世界。
从姐姐听着的 《Love》 [田馥甄]，
到二哥叫我听的的 《Love Story》 [Taylor Swift]、《Secret》 [One Republic]，
然后，Dickson介绍的 《寂寞寂寞就好》 [田馥甄]，
慧晶的 《Fall For You》 [Secondhand Serenade]，
最后，康荣的 《Arigatou》 [Kokia]。

它们， 在我心情不好时，安抚着我； 在我孤独一人时，陪伴着我。 我只能说，Arigatou,谢谢你们，也谢谢介绍我去听这些歌的人。你们，再度点燃了我生命的那道光！

Moral Values!

躺在床上，面对着三十六个道德价值观。但是，我只需要背二十五个。不知不觉，时间过得好快，好快。。。

在没参考任何资料的情况下，我把这二十五个价值观的意思打出来（有错请见谅）：

BP1
Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan
- Keyakinan wujudnya Tuhan sebagai pencipta alam dan mematuhi segala suruhan-Nya berlandaskan pegangan agama masing-masing selaras dengan prinsip Rukun Negara.
Amanah
- Sikap bertanggungjawab yang boleh menimbulkan kerpercayaan dan keyakinan orang lain.
Harga diri
- Keupayaan dan keyakinan diri agar mampu memulia dan menjaga maruah diri dalam kehidupan.
Bertanggungjawab
- Kesanggupan diri seseorang untuk memikul dan melaksanakan tugas serta kewajipan dengan sempurna.
Hemah tinggi
- Beradab sopan dan berbudi pekerti mulia dalam pergaulan seharian.
Toleransi
- Kesanggupan bertolak ansur, sabar dan mengawal diri bagi mengelakkan berlakunya pertelingkahan dan perselisihan faham demi kesejahteraan hidup.
Berdikari
- Kebolehan dan kesanggupan melakukan sesuatu tanpa bergantung kepada orang lain.
Kerajinan
- Usaha yang berterusan penuh dengan semangat ketekunan, kecekalan, kegigihan, dedikasi dan berdaya maju dalam melakukan susuatu perkara.
Kasih sayang
- Kepekaan dan perasaan cinta yang mendalam serta berkekalan yang lahir daripada hati yang ikhlas.
Keadilan
- Tindakan dan keputusan yang saksama serta tidak berat sebelah.
Rasional
- Boleh berfikir berdasarkan alasan dan bukti yang nyata dan dapat mengambil tindakan berasaskan pertimbangan yang wajar.
Kesederhanaan
- Bersikap tidak keterlaluan dalam membuat pertimbangan dan tindakan sama ada dalam pemikiran, pertuturan atau perlakuan tanpa mengabaikan kepentingan diri dan orang lain.

BP1完了，这个平时考试都有出，背起来还不算难，接下来的就：

BP4
Cinta akan negara
- Perasaan sayang dan bangga kepada negara serta meletakkan kepentingan negara melebihi kepentingan diri.
Taat setia kepada raja dan negara
- Kepatuhan dan kesetiaan yang berkekalan kepada raja dan negara.
Sanggup berkorban untuk negara
- Kerelaan untuk melakukan atau menyerahkan sesuatu termasuk nyawa sebagai tanda kebaktian untuk negara

BP5最难，我背了好久：

BP5
Melindungi hak kanak-kanak
- Membela, memberi naungan dan memelihara hak kanak-kanak bagi menjamin kehidupan mereka yang sempurna.
Menghormati hak wanita
- Melindungi dan mengiktiraf wanita sebagai individu yang boleh memberi sumbangan dalam pembangunan keluarga, masyarakat dan negara.
Melindungi hak pekerja
- Menghormati, menghargai dan mengiktiraf perkhidmatan, jasa dan sumbangan golongan pekerja dalam pembangunan negara.
Menghormati hak golongan kurang berupaya
- Memberi layanan yang bersopan kepada golongan kurang berupaya supaya tidak berasa tersisih dan mengiktiraf mereka srbagai insan ciptaan Tuhan.
Melindungi hak pengguna
- Membela dan memelihara hak individu untuk menjadi pengguna yang berilmu, mendapat perkhidmatan serta barangan yang berkualiti dan tidak mudah dieksploitasi.

终于要完了，剩一个BP.

BP6
Mematuhi peraturan dan undang-undang
- Menerima dan mematuhi peraturan dan undang-undang yang telah ditentukan tanpa mengira sesiapa dan di mana seseorang itu berada.
Kebebasan bersuara
- Kebebasan bercakap dan mengeluarkan fikiran dengan batasan tertentu bagi menjaga keselamatan dan ketenteraman.
Kebebasan beragama
- Kebebasan setiap individu untuk menganuti dan mengamalkan agamanya seperti yang diperuntukkan dalam Perlembagaan Malaysia.
Penglibatan diri dalam pembangunan negara
- Kebebasan untuk melibatkan diri dalam pelbagai aktiviti pembangunan negara dengan mematuhi peraturan, undang-undang dan Perlembagaan Malaysia.
Sikap keterbukaan
- Bersedia memberi dan menerima pandangan, pembaruan dan kritikan selaras dengan kebenaran fakta dan norma masyarakat Malaysia.

完了，背完了。可是，背完真的有用吗？又不是全部出意思。。。

算了，还是关上电脑，去读别科吧。多的是 我没读完的书。。。

嗯，打起十二分精神，去翻书吧！我的朋友们，加油！

一定要有题目吗？

这是我无意间，刷新面子书看到的：

哪個星座會為難朋友

处女座：其实处女座给人的压力来自「自尊心过高」，越郁闷的处女，越给人神经质，或很容易击碎的印象，彷佛踏到他的痛 点就会跳起来似的，让人家压力很大。好比随口说句：「那天你表现得有点失常」，他马上就更失常给你看，完美主义的他对任何负面评价都介意得不得了，只要他 发狂一次，相信从此任何人跟处女座讲话就会非常小心。而且多虑型的处女座会不自觉地陷入「揣摩对方心意」的牛角尖中，只是随口一句，也会不断地想是什么意 思？让人压力真是够大的。

处女座的我，的确很要求完美，至少，我没有会失常给人家看。以上写到这样，有些我也不太认同，可是这一句：

“完美主义的他对任何负面评价都介意得不得了。”

有时，我的却很在乎别人对我的评价。而我，也是个不敢接受事实的人，因为事实都是残酷的。如果和我相处，真的很压力的话，希望大家可以提醒我，因为我不想做个会给人神经质、很容易击碎印象的人。

~-_有时候_-~

有时候，我羡慕；
有时候，我嫉妒。

有时候，我高兴；
有时候，我难过。

有时候，我轻松；
有时候，我压力。

有时候，我开放；
有时候，我保守。

有时候，我欣慰；
有时候，我后悔。

有时候，我兴奋；
有时候，我低落。

有时候，我满意；
有时候，我不服。

有时候，我执着；
有时候，我放弃。

有时候，我希望；
有时候，我失望。

有时候，我期待；
有时候，我绝望。

这一切的有时候，正是两个完完全全相反的心情、相反的我（Dickson 很喜欢的）。有时候，天气晴朗；有时候，雷雨交加。即使是相差那么短的时间，一个人的心情也会受到周遭的事而被影响。虽然人类是脆弱了些，但这也证明了人是多愁善感的，而并非冷血动物。

有时候，我不能达到自己的要求；
有时候，即使达到了又能怎样呢？

2010-09-22

虽然华语的写到不是说很好，不过这次不用华语不懂要怎样说。

今天：-
1）中秋节
2）凯铭的生日
3）常年大会 (AGM)

先说中秋节，也没什么啦，要晚上才会知道。。。

凯铭的生日：哇，他真的赚到了，竟然没被阿鲁巴，最好的礼物应该是当上副财政吧。

常年大会：噢买尬，这个真的弄到我很紧张，结果最后职委表是这样的：
主席：林康荣
副主席：黄启濠
秘书：可怜的我
副秘书：也过不了多好的郭翰霖
财政：颜凯文
副财政：黄凯铭

结果，我就酱无缘无故当上秘书，唉，听说秘书不好过？

算了算了，学海，以后丢给副主席卖，哈哈。。。

伟杰说：明天有开会，两点到三点（想必我一定要记录？）

还有还有，我不会忘记你的：郑嘉铭-我们的中五执委（明年）。。。可是你也是要走了，明年不懂怎样办。。。不说也不行，今天如果没管的话，你就当上了seni foto 的主席了，不然你真的很幸运。。。

常年大会过后，唉，我竟然摆乌龙。。。听说是晴天霹雳，我却讲成：天打雷劈，噢买尬，神啊，我不是故意的啦。。。

好啦，再度呈现有限的，不过不是公司了（有人讲这样也可以算公司吗？）。。。

等下六点，要去肯塔基帮凯铭庆祝一番，呵呵，他请？哈哈，我不懂。。。嗯，看了这次破死的人，不要再讲我聊，我知道很烂。谢谢。。。

新更新!!!

哈哈，看到这个破死不要惊讶！！！

没错！！！这次我用华语！！！
之前有人说看不懂我写的，很抱歉，这次我写华语，你们应该看得懂吧？（还是先申明：我的华语不那么好，如果很多错的话，请多多包涵与见谅！）

这次，要说些什么呢？就，要考试了，我连一本书都还没拿起，每天除了面书，就没做其他事。上网聊天、comment来comment去、放新状态，好像就只这些。

可以讲是虚度光阴！！！
真的是有显到。。。看来这几天一定要加把劲了，不然这次的考试就等着看红字。（虽然美禄都加红字牛奶）
还好我很少吃蛋，不然考试顺便一起吃鸡蛋。

唉，人生，不就是生老病死（有人说是吃、喝、拉和睡），做酱多东西做么？浪费时间。也不可以酱讲啦，至少每天有家人和朋友的陪伴，我也不忍心丢下你们不管。（当然，要等你们先死）哈，开玩笑。

不懂做么，写到这里，我越看越觉得我写华语真的很烂。也许我不适合写华语的吧。。。

还好啦，应该不至于这么差。。。（自言自语，我一定是疯了）。

参考了几个朋友的部落格，发现到，他们的真的是会吸引人，会很想看下去。我的，不是看不懂，就是看到全部英文直接懒惰看。我只是想写写一些东西，抒情罢了。抒不了情，还在这里浪费时间。有看我的部落格的人，我应该是在折磨你们吧，看了可能一头雾水（不用洗发水？），不懂我在写什么。。。看得懂的话，也一定觉得我很无聊。。。


唉！
再度叹气。。。索里叻，在此也向说句对不起。。如果之前有得罪过谁，请他/她大人不计我的过（我不是小人）。有帮过我的，就说声谢谢。唉唉唉！我没东西写了，我的华语就只限这样（有限公司，我还share>.<），不要见怪。

看过了，给点建议，我需要你们的看法来改进，酱我就可以写得更好（希望如此）。有些朋友也说过很多很有意思的话（虽然有些是拷贝的），不过对人生也有帮助，可以用在日常生活中。

噢给了，真的就此搁笔，下次见（不懂几久才有空来更新）。。。拜拜。。（记得给意见）^.^

Mid-Autumn Festival

Time flies, Mid-Autumn Festival is around the corner. I can still remember the atmosphere during this festival few years ago. It is a happy festival, which symbolizes the reunion of families and the moon will be the roundest on this day. Children will also play with different color and shape of lanterns. It is really a joyous festival. It is also a memorable day when you look up to the moon while eating moon cake. Tales related to this festival will also be told to children so that they can have a better understanding about this traditional festival. As what I can still remember, I used to hang a variety of lanterns around my house. They have lighted and brightened my heart, my life and my future!

Revolution and Renovation!!!

What can I do to renew and decorate my blog so that it becomes more attracting and interesting? Actually I intend to keep my blog updated all the time so that it won't rust. ^^ Trying everything that is going to help me with this so that I won't waste my time here, I am going to make it even more successful!!!

NOTHING/NOBODY IS PERFECT

Well, nothing or nobody is perfect. What we should do is to accept everything in life. Never complaint or lament of what you lack of. Instead, appreciate whatever you have. Bless the others that have higher achievements than us, but not grudge them as they have offended you. Comfort the others who were not lucky enough, but not criticize and laugh at them. Be grateful of anything you have, treasure them with your sincere heart. We only live once, don't let the world filled with any sadness or depression. This beautiful world should be filled with lots and lots of happiness. Revenge and jealousy are strongly prohibited in my world, my nearly-perfect world, although nothing and nobody is perfect!!!

Laziness of Managing Blog

After such a long time I found out that managing a blog isn't a simple task. I have had a busy school life and lots of homework. Soon I have became lazy to manage my blog because time really flies. Exams never stop coming and I need to prepare well to prevent regression.

I am back!!!

Sorry everyone for long time not being blogging. I was kind of busy with school activities, which suddenly all rushed to me together at one time. For the following weeks, too, I will not be blogging as I need to sit for my half-yearly examination. Maybe, after examination, I will meet you all here as soon as possible. Don't lose faith & confidence towards yourself, and God too, regarding to your religious belief. Always believe in yourself to decide everything you are going to do. Never hesitate or you will regret later on. Best wishes to all my blog reader, wishing that you all always have good time in your long-term lifetime. Remember, we live in this world not to please others, but for ourselves, for our bright future!!

True Friends~

Yes, I failed in this test.
Which, in others' eyes, it is simple.
But to me, when I got that cruel results,
My heart broke into smithereens.

I try, and try to think.
What have I done?
Just because of some of my bad attributes
They left me once
Making me felt like
Falling into a valley of misery
Fortunately
During that very moment
Someone stays with me
Befriends with me
How I thank them from the deep side of my heart

Now
although 2 of 3 has been found back
The last one still cannot accept me
Why?
Is he still in indignation?
Or I haven't do my best?
I wondered
However
I hope it would become slightly better
So that I can find back my true friends...

Seeking for help~

Something that cannot be done, alone, which I really desire some helping hands often. Yes, of course, those helping hands of yours, will be greatly appreciated, wherever or whatever you helped me in...

Whoever you all are, your kindness will be always hidden deeply in my heart, without being forgotten, and can withstand the ordeal of time as it washes memories soon after that...

And maybe someday, someone will lead me to the right path, where I can do everything as I wished, without being restrained by other trifles. This, is what I desired. This, will let me to shout out all frustrations. Yes, with this, I shall be the genuine me, undeniably...